Wednesday, January 11, 2006

my kingdom....or atleast that is what i called it...

the 33 x 18 m court with two parallel lines in each border with four boxes and 1 net that makes a badminton court...well, its not a place for me anymore, or atleast that is what i feel and think...

once upon a long time, say 4 years ago, that same box, whether in singapore, NIST, RIS, or the good old colony, used to be my 'kingdom'...the only place i ruled...the only place i felt i deserved as my own...and now...i just dont feel like i can call it mine anymore...

since u r wondering why i'm saying all this...well, was playing badminton on campus..after a long...say after a year or so, and just like the last time i 'tried' playing, i just couldn't....it just didnt feel right...

playing badminton would solve so many of my problems...or atleast help me...physically as well as mentally (J, P, S: u know what i'm talking about, nah???)...

the girl that once upon a time had only 2 crazes (at that point in time): cricket (well, technically dravid really...hehe.) and badminton...

well before the bus from school returned inside the colony every friday, my plans for playing badminton was already made...and then came saturdays and sundays, where i made sure that the evenings were untouched by the numerous plans as i had to play badminton, from 3 or 4 to 8 or 9....that was perfect....

but then one day, i fell down and ever since then i really haven't been able to get up ..to build up my courage to "play" badminton...maybe i wont ever really be able to "play" the way i used to anymore, not just technically, but even like emotionally and mentally...even after more than 2 years...

o! well, i dont want to bore & depress u guys with all this...

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

dont b so depressed.. u fell down.. evrybody does... GET UP and START PLAYING.. with a new spirit...